Sunday, June 28, 2009

What I am

I heard the term before, but I'd forgotten it until I heard it this morning. Social anxiety disorder, Yep, that's me, prefer to be with animals than people.

But...that got me thinking......I've always been introverted and after being assualted at 18, Post traumatic stress disorder, didn't help that no one seemed to care, even family.

And having to try to act normal, civilized or whatever....staying in one place because of Russ, I settled into depression.

No, I wont take drugs for any of those, the last drug I took (high blood pressure)had worse side effects then what the drug was supposed to help.

As Russ gets older, I see he's getting to be like me and I don't want him growing up to feel, by other kids, like he's mentally handicapped.
So...why should I try to be like everyone else when he loves the things that I do. I think he'll be fine traveling with me, better education I think,too.
He's like a mini-me. lol

Yes, I know, I'm a broken old stray dog. *snicker*

But, ya know, with all the disease n disorders that the "doctors" make up, all of us are sick, *wry grin*

If you think about it, that best explorers and inventors, etc, would have been drugged up in todays world. "They" don't like people that think outside the box.

Well, that's enough for now, hopefully, my blogs will be more upbeat after I leave here.

Oh, and I'm bummed out that I will miss cattail harvesting with Celeste. wah!! :)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Sorry again

Apologies for the blowup....again.

Since I wont let myself drink my troubles away, stress just builds up 'til my blood pressure and anger blows up.

I really need to wait a few days before blogging after I get mad. :D

So.....I'm not selling my laptop and I plan to split in 4-6 weeks.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

With a little help from my friends

ok guys I just put my laptop up for sale, the only reason is for gas money to split with.

With this new job, I wont get paid til the end of the month and I didn't have that much to begin with, Thanks alot BK. *grumble*
Anyway, If I try to save money the normal way, I'll never get ouuta here.

If I do sell it I'l be leaving within a couple weeks. I'll be heading west through WY, etc, although I may go through N. Ca to see my sister first before I head north.

What I'm asking of my online friends is; If you guys know of any odd jobs in your area that I can do as I go.

Resume is at this site.

Call or write as I may not be online much after this weekend.